I am reading an oldie goldie entitled Crisis Experiences by Dr. Edman. It's one of Dad's old books from the Grapevine.
The chapter about Charles Trumbull was especially interesting. He looked around at his Christian friends and saw that some had a greater insights, some whose only Christian resource was Jesus Christ. He observed a man who "enjoyed habitual consequences of the presence of the Savior with him always." Trumbull says that even mature Christians were having break-throughs, "laying hold on (Christ) in this new way." He only knew that he himself had "great fluctuations in his spiritual life, on occasion in conscious fellowship with the Savior, and then again down in the depths of defeat." He said, "It seemed to me that it ought to be possible for me to live habitually on a high plane of close fellowship with God."
After he pressed through in prayer, studied a sermon on the subject and prayed some more, God gave him this never ceasing close fellowship. This quote got me to thinking.
"Jesus Christ does not want to be our helper; He wants to be our life. He does not want us to work for Him. He wants us to let Him do His work through us, using us as we use a pencil to write with- better still, using us as one of the fingers on His hand."