today

It has not been a good day. I have experienced a gamut of emotions today...anticipatory, prepared, excited, anxious, irritated, angered, pissed, hurt, marginalized, unloved, and criticized, plus a few more. I have laughed, and I have cried. I put time and effort into creating a Thanksgiving to remember, but few even cared to show up or spend time. I never thought the holidays could ever be this painful; when I was growing up, I thought that Thanksgiving could only get better and better as we added in-laws to the mix. Well, it hasn't worked out that way. It's just been an awful day.

And I have faith and hope that God will work it all for good in my life. He had better. It is all too painful without that hope. Too overwhelming.

Now off to bury my emotion and watch one of my fav films, "Persuasion." I pray the rest of the week gets better!

occupy wall street

I wonder how few of the Occupy Wall Street, and for that matter, the Occupy Pensacola protesters have jobs, have mortgages, pay taxes, and contribute to the economy that they are protesting?!?

Yes, the economy is in dire straits, and every one of us is stretching our money, but some of us have been doing this for YEARS! Revolting in the streets is not the way to expedite change! Dope-smoking and defecating in the streets will NOT influence politicians, nor will it effect positive change for our country. Wasn't that what the last election was supposed to do...HOPE for CHANGE?!?  It reminds me of Job 15:31. "Let him not trust in emptiness, deceiving himself; for emptiness will be his reward."

Well, they hoped and trusted, and they got their change. But they don't like the taste of it. Not that voting helps either. I have voted for years and typically have not failed to be disappointed in every politician that takes office. I remember the "Young Republicans" that swept Washington back in 1994. We conservatives were so hopeful that they would fulfill their campaign promises. Take Joe Scarborough as a prime example...yeah. Nuff said. Oh, excepting J. C. Watts; I haven't lost my respect for him. Not yet.

Our country needs to change. Our government has been bought. It is corrupted with greed and power and the love of money. So what's to be done? We must continue to live life, and NOT cop out. Work hard. Save and invest wisely. Tighten the proverbial belt. And most importantly, trust GOD.

No, I am not one of the 99% either. I work as hard as the next guy. Harder, really. But my trust and hope is the LORD, not in the politicians in D.C. Not in the money-men in Wall Street. Not in the world economic markets, oil barrel prices, nor in the almighty dollar. "And those who know Your name will put their trust in You, For You, O LORD, have not forsaken those who seek You." Psalm 9:10.

We will not be forsaken. We will not be begging for bread. Psalm 37:25 reminds us, "I have been young and now I am old, yet I have not seen the righteous forsaken or his descendants begging bread."

There is no need for angst or anger. GOD is in control!

not waiting

It has been months since I have blogged. There has been no need to scribble to vent, or to keep my sanity. It is well in tact, and I survived the ending of a busy school year! :-)

I read YLCF's article The Joy of Waiting tonight, all the while watching Jane Austen's "Persuasion" movie. I am not sure that is was a sane combination! :-) It is my favorite JA story plot, as I identify with Anne Elliot in some ways.

I couldn't help but respond. Waiting for God to write your love story when you are young does bring anticipation and “unbridled joy.” I enjoyed those years of preparing, learning skills, homemaking, and looking forward to one day being the queen of one man’s heart and home.

But I am now almost 36, and the wait is not so joyful anymore. It is more of a reticent and quiet acceptance of what is. And what is not. And being fruitful and busy and making the wait count for eternity.

As a wise king once said, “Hope deferred makes the heart sick, But desire fulfilled is a tree of life.”